The other night I went shopping with Desire and it reminded me once again how totally different our lives truly are. While she's trying on every pair of jeans in the store and complaining about how nothing, but those $70 ones really fit her, I'm scouring the clearance racks. Then during a conversation about barhopping, I realized that since we are TTC (sort of) that I probably am not going to be doing any of that for awhile. Nor do I have any desire to, really. There's probably a million other examples most of which are heightened by recent events, I'm sure. I still love her to pieces and would never want to not be her friend, but once again we are in completely different places in our lives. I guess we have always been, but the realization of it sneaks up on me here and there. It kind of makes me sad.
Then I think about what you said the other night about how great it is that our kids will be close in age (we hope!) and that makes me happy. Except that you are far away. Sorry, this isn't meant to be a guilt trip. I'm just feeling kind sad today, I guess. I just miss my friends. Sometimes don't you just want to go back to when it was simpler? Before we had husbands and babies and all of that? Oh wait, that means we'd have to go back to high school...I'm not sure any of us are willing to repeat that!
I'm thinking this little road trip (less than 2 weeks...eee!!!) will do me a world of good. Time to reconnect with everyone and to appreciate how wonderful our friendships really are.
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It's really interesting you bring this up because I've been thinking about it since Friday when we filled out that questionnaire. To the question: How do you see yourself in 10 years, we both answered a busy mom.
But think about it: in ten years Desire & Angela will have kids that have already left the nest. In fact, in 10 years they could be GRANDPARENTS! Crazy to think about.
I miss you too, all the time. I wish we lived closer together so our kids could be as close as we are. :( But it makes me happy to know that Hazel will still have her Aunt Misty in her life, even if it is only a few times a year.
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