Monday, November 21, 2005

So yesterday morning Doug told me that he doesn't want to get married right now and it isn't even a thought in his head and that I should quit talking about it. On the one hand, I'm glad he told me so I can quit going on about it like some kind of idiot. On the other hand, I'm extremely pissed off and not so sure I want to think some of the thoughts I've been thinking. We've been together a year and a half now and he has already proposed (sort of) once. And we live together, against most of our family's wishes. Am I dumb to think that since we live together that we should consider getting married? Does he even want to be living with me or is he just doing it because it saves him money? I don't want to be one of those dumb girls who gives her boyfriend and ultimatum...marry me or break up with me. I love him, and so if I love him, I should be willing to wait, right? But how long? Doesn't he understand that I have goals and dreams and plans? I'm already 25, and I want to start my life already. I just feel like I'm standing around waiting for something to happen. Of course he's in no hurry to do anything. Besides the fact that he's saving lots of $$ living with me, he also has a cook and a maid. I do all the cooking, cleaning and laundry. That's going to have to stop. I'm so frustrated, I could scream!!!!

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