I HATE DOUG'S JOB!!

Not as much as he does, I'm sure. They told him today that for an indefinite period of time beginning now that he has to work 10 hour days, Monday thru Saturday. And they cancelled his vacation! I'm so mad and I don't even want to think about the bad moods and everything that comes along with working late and not really having weekends off.

More on yesterday...

I was telling Amanda about Leah's email earlier and it hit me. Yes, I'm upset because I am jealous, but I am more upset because I haven't talked to any of them all summer and that is the only thing she had to tell me! Why she would even think it was important to tell me, unless it was to make me feel even more excluded than I already feel. Seriously, the last time I saw her she basically snubbed me. And I know I moved and didn't call, but if she had wanted to talk to me, she could have found a way. And the fact is that I'm being excluded because of something that happened almost 2 years ago. Something that I don't even care about and have moved on from. Yet none of them can. That's what upsets me.

Nauseated...

I don't even want to tell you this, because I know it will make you as sick as it is making me, but guess who is pregnant already?? Are you ready for this???? MARY!!! Can you believe it? I got a reply from Leah and she was going on and on about it. Like I care or something. It might just be a little bit because I am jealous. Not because she's got him or anything like that. More in general because I would like to be married and having a baby too, only with Doug. Definitely not Greg. What really gets me is that I know how she was with her first child. Not that I doubt that she loves her or anything like that, but...I don't even know. I can't put it into words. All I know is that the night I was over there and her daughter was sick, I was the one cleaning up puke because she couldn't even look at it without puking herself. How do you get through changing diapers and all of that if you can't even clean up a little bit of puke from your own kid! I guess she did it the first time, but I imagine it wasn't without alot of help. Oh well. Here's to a happy, healthy baby. One of these days it'll be our turn...

Another fun and exciting Saturday at work!

Maybe if I am positive then I won't feel like I've wasted half my weekend by the time I get home today. :-) Yeah, right.

So here I am at work again. On a Saturday. Woo-hoo! Okay, enough of that. The one positive to Saturdays at work are that on Friday nights I get the house to myself mostly. Last night Doug went to Aaron's for some D&A time. Get it? I'm sure you do. Anyhow, he ended up staying the night there, so more pluses, I didn't have to be completely cramped while I slept last night. Not that I don't want him there, but it is nice to get a decent night's sleep when I know I'm dreading coming to work. Plus my allergies have kicked in so my sleeping is even more off! Unfortunately, I didn't get much accomplished last night. Watched too much bad TV and about 3 loads of laundry. I just wasn't up for much else. Doug made dinner for us before he left (guilt-induced, no doubt) and I ate too much. It was spaghetti and I overdid it with the bread. Then to top it off I needed to get the garlic taste out of my mouth so I ate a couple of handfuls of chocolate cereal. It didn't help. And it just made me crave more sugar. My stomach hurt too much to actually do anything about it, thank goodness. And this morning I was good and had my shredded wheat (okay, so it's frosted) cereal and yogurt. I had coffee too, but it had sugar-free creamer in it. Wow! I can't believe I have written about so much crap so far!

Anyhow, on my agenda for today, aside from getting my work done is to find an easy chicken and dumpling recipe or chicken and biscuits. You know, something like a chicken pot pie. I want to make it for dinner tomorrow. And I'm going to make brownies for dessert. Maybe we'll even invite company over. Who knows. I wish you and Josh were here, so we could invite you over!

Did I tell you I got my dress and it fits? I might need to get some control top undergarments or shapers, if I don't lay off the foods that make me bloated. Guess I'll really need to work on cutting out the salt this week. The wedding is a week from today. And it is a long weekend, since it is Labor Day and then back to work for 4 days and then I'm off for 5 more! Doug is too. Only, he's got the whole week off. I am working the last two days of it. Mostly because I don't want the guilt trip that comes with being off for a whole week. I don't think we're going to be doing much of anything. The only thing we want to do is go to the zoo. Mostly I think we'll just be hanging out around the house. That will be nice though.

Tonight we are going out with Aaron and Lindsey. Dinner and a movie, I think. Lindsey called me Thursday and invited me to go to Kohl's with her today, but I was stuck working and then she invited me to go out with her and her girlfriends last night, but I declined that one too. Mostly because I had to work this morning and didn't want to be out late, but also because I think her friends are a little too trendy and well, you know..., for me. I definitely wasn't in the mood to play odd girl out. I feel bad though because I like Lindsey and I like hanging out with her. I guess it is my turn to do the inviting. Maybe we can go out next Friday night, when the boys are at Ronnie's bachelor party. It sucks when you are trying to form new friendships. It's not like you and Josh, where Doug and I can both claim you as friends. In this instance we are going out with Doug's friend, Aaron and Aaron's girlfriend, Lindsey. At some point, I'd like to just say we're seeing our friends', Aaron and Lindsey tonight. Do you know what I mean?

Me Oh My, So Many Shoes to Buy!

Yikes, I hadn't realized Payless had a website! So many shoes in my size! I started putting shoes in my cart that I wanted to buy and I now have 4 pairs. I won't buy them, but it makes me feel good to put them in my shopping cart. :)

I really like these. They'll go so nice with my tweed blazer!

*edited to add: Where else can you get 4 pairs of shoes for $55.96?

Also Interferring with My Plan NOT to Work

Is Old Navy's site being down! I was going to post a nice long piece about my desire for a good tweed jacket for fall. I have several in mind and want your opinion. Unfortunately for me, the web gods at Old Navy decided to frown on me.

Woe is me! I want my tweed jacket!

You Know You're a JA Fan When...

I sooooooo have to get this! (and I soooo should be working.)

A Tribute To My Baby Sister!

Tomorrow is Sarah's 16th (!!) birthday. Can you believe it? I know I can't. I remember when they brought Sarah home from the hospital. I thought she was my very own baby doll. It was the greatest thing ever! I loved holding her and playing with her. And even though things haven't always been easy between us (I don't think they ever can be with sisters) I love her more and more every day. She's growing up into such a beautiful young woman. So here's to you, Sarah! I love you and wish you all the happiness in the world!

P.S. Good luck on your drivers test! :-)

Ack, SUNDAY!

Sorry I didn't call yesterday! I really thought I'd be home all day, but as it happens, Josh had other plans! Nothing fun, I assure you. We had to go into to town and clean his tools at work. His company is selling to another and sometime this week the big wigs from the new company are going to come in a do inventory with each service tech. Josh thought it would look bad if his tools got their lily white hands dirty, so we scrubbed 'em!

Do you have any idea how many tools that boy has? Or how filthy they were? Ew.

I remembered about 10 pm, in bed, that I had forgotten to call you. In fact, composing this apology is one of the things I thought about as I tossed in turned in bed last night!

I wish this blogger thing had smilies! I'd give one for very sorry.

:( Just dosen't cut it.

more on work

I tried something new with the kids today. When they were misbehaving (to generalize), I told them they had to sit on the bench for 5 minutes. I had one girl storm out and take all her trouble-maker friends with her. That is fine with me. I can't make them stay here, but if they are going to be here, then they have to listen to what we say. But one boy actually did sit for the whole time. I don't know if he got anything else out of it, but he didn't call me names for making him do it. One small tiny victory for me!

Hola Clase

Hopefully you read my venting email and you can see the connection between that and this. What do you think of my becoming a Spanish teacher? Something I should have done a long time ago, maybe? I figured it up and I only need 54 credit hours...and at least 12 of that is student teaching. So really only 3 semesters of classes, maybe less if I do summer classes. It would really be helpful to only have to work part-time during those couple of semesters. Hopefully, I'll be a senora soon enough and I won't worry about that! :-)

It's Raining, It's Pouring...

...The old man is snoring. Hopefully anyway. And hopefully by the time he wakes up he will be in a better mood and will have forgotten all about the nasty screaming match we had just before I came to work. He wasn't in any kind of mood to accept my semi-apology either. He slept downstairs last night. Mostly because I think that is where he passed out after drinking all but one out of a 12-pack and watching tv late. I went to bed early because I had to work today. So he comes upstairs a little after 8 this morning and you can tell he's got a chip on his shoulder already. So I follow him into the bedroom so I can finish getting my stuff for work and he calls me psycho. I think he thought I was following him or something. When I explained I was getting my stuff he said okay. Then as I'm digging in my closet trying to find my tennis shoes, something smacks me in the back of my head. It's the purse I had out earlier this morning. So then I get really mad thinking he threw it at me on purpose. So I start screaming then he screams louder. There's door slamming and the whole nine yards. Anyway, I tried to go and apologize before I left for work, but like I said he wasn't in the mood to listen. And I explained what I thought happened so I would like an apology from him too. So now I get to sit at work and be angry all day. Doesn't that sound like fun!

Update:

He has called an apologized. It only took about 2 hours. Not bad. :-) I feel much better now.

Dress Shopping

I went dress shopping last night, frantically searching for anything to wear to Ronnie & Cori's wedding. It's 3 weeks from tomorrow. There was a ton of stuff on clearance, but of course nothing that I liked or that would fit. Never fails. So I got online this morning and ordered this. What do you think? I like it and I so very much hope it fits! If not then I'll probably only have about a week to try and find something else to wear. I have no one to shop with either. Doug won't even spend 20 minutes in the dress section with me, as I learned last night. Keep your fingers crossed that this one will work out for me.

Commuting Sucks!

I really don't have much else to say. My life has been frittered away an hour each way! I honestly don't know how the boys do it (or did it in Josh's case).

Book You're Reading

I just saw that you are reading a book called "Women's Europe" and was wondering if it was any good? Are you still reading it, or is it finished and you haven't updated? Just wondering about your rating before I decide about reading it.

BTW, I went through your list today and found a ton of books that look great! Now my "to read" list is SO much more huge!

Thank You!!! Thank You!!!

I got my bear yesterday and isn't he the cutest thing! I love him so much already. Then I read your note and it almost made me cry! You have gone way above and beyond for this birthday. It's too much! I've already started to plan what I'm getting you for your birthday. It's a good thing I've got 6 months! :-) I just want you to know how much I appreciate it all. Especially after I got the big disappointment from Doug. I'll call you sometime today.

Memories...

Okay, so after we got off the phone last night I started feeling bad about not being able to remember seeing the movie. I take that back, I remember that we saw it, just nothing so specific about that time. I didn't want you to think I didn't have any memories of our early years! I have tons of them! I'm sure you realize all of that. And maybe when I sit down to watch the movie it'll all come back to me. I'd like to know what you remember about it and maybe I'll remember more. Just knowing that it meant alot to you already makes it one of my favorite movies in my tiny DVD collection. And you should know that you could get me a box of rocks and I'd probably think it was the greatest thing, just because they were from you! What a lucky girl I am to have such a great best friend. :-) Okay, okay....enough sappy stuff.

Reading Too Much!

I'm usually one to finish one book before I start another. But I've been very fickle about my reading material lately.

First I started this: My Life
Then I decided to put that on hold and read and finished a few other books.
After that I started this: Rule of Four
But then Harry Potter came out so that was paused.
I finished HBP and started a new Aunt Dimity book to cheer myself up.
THEN I forgot reading material last Friday and bought this: Digital Fortress which I'm forcing myself to read slowly because I LOVE Dan Brown and this is the last book of his I haven't read.

Grr.. I've got to finish one of these books or I'll go mad with options!

Gift Misgivings

So after I got off the phone with you last night (so happy to talk to you!) I worried incessantly about your gifts. Being a good gift giver is a hard thing to live up to. I tried to go with a theme this year, "Things that remind me of you." But now I wonder if I should have just gotten you things I know for sure that you'd like.

The first gift you will get (which you should get by tomorrow) is the one I'm the most worried about. I was so happy with myself when I thought of it. It REALLY reminds me of you. It is from one of those vivid memories I have that are so minor, but really stick out in my mind. I was sure when I bought it that you would love it. Now... I'm having a weird invading memory of you telling me you DIDN'T like it. Which kind of doesn't make sense, but it's hard to tell with me. In fact, now that I'm writing this, I'm even more sure you won't like it. Anyhow, if you don't like it, you can send it back and get something else. I won't be upset in the slightest, really, honestly and truly! :)

The next gift you'll get is a little more obvious reference to our friendship. I'm pretty sure you'll like it. Just not 100% sure you'll like it alot! Grrr....

The last gift you'll get, which I'm making, I'm positive you'll like. But honestly, it is a gift that is really for both of us.

I think I do this to myself every year. (Except last year. I was POSITIVE I'd hit a homerun with that one!) I know I shouldn't worry, because you're always very nice about the gifts you get. I just don't want to disappoint you. :(

To You...

HAPPY
BIRTHDAY!!!

I hope you have
a great day!