I've Been a Bad NaNo participant...

I see you've been moving right along though, good for you!! I actually haven't written anything since Friday night. I'm back on it tonight though, so we'll see.

We can't wait to see you guys, Thanksgiving is going to be here in just 2 short weeks. How long are you staying? I have no idea what we are doing for the holiday. I know we're going to my parents on Thanksgiving and out to my grandpa's on Friday night. Who knows what with Doug's family though. They never plan anything until the last second. So annoying!

Lost

I'm feeling a little lost and sad today. Signing my new name is finally starting to feel normal. I catch myself thinking "no, not Sni, Bro-wait, it is Sni." I spent some time with my mom last night and for the first time it just felt weird. Like we weren't family anymore or something. I almost felt like I wasn't her daughter, does that seem odd? I feel guilty now for spending time with Doug's family. Not that we see them alot, but we haven't really spent any time with my family since the wedding. We've actually seen Doug's way more often and that never happens. I really didn't think anything was going to change when we got married, but it really does. I kept hearing things about how you lose a little bit of yourself and I thought that was the craziest thing I had ever read. But it's kind of true, I think. All of a sudden, I'm not me anymore, I'm "we." Everything I do has a direct effect on two lives now, not one. I don't know why that thought never occurred to me when we were living together or even engaged. I wonder now, if I will ever feel like my own person again? Does this little piece of myself that I'm losing ever come back? Is this all just "post nuptial depression?" *Sigh* I'm sure I'll feel better soon enough and I definitely don't want to sound like I'm looking for a pity party, I'm not. Just venting a few frustrations.

Hooray for me!

I'm already up to 2,607 words! I think that is already more than I wrote the first year I did it. The crazy thing is that I had absolutely nothing in mind until 2 nights ago and I didn't even have character names picked out until I started writing them and realized they needed names today. I think my story this year has some similarities to my first year, although who can remember it was 4 years ago. Once again there are 4 friends, but this time they are all married and each are dealing with a different issue in their marriage. I'm not even sure what that first story was about, but I really like this one. So far so good!